Perpetually Single

Dear Reader,
I was sitting on the MRT yesterday, and saw a couple sitting in front of me. The man tried to speak to his gf and her answers were blunt. He reached out and placed his hand on her hand, and she moved her hand away. loveless.

Somewhat painful to watch. Despite my cynical view towards relationships, I can't shake this ideal picture that couples should be happy in love, if you have constant lull periods, something is wrong with that relationship and you should get out. My parents are happy in love, they hardly fight, and if they have disagreements it would be debates on current issues, never huge things. You can see their happiness. They aren't still together because they are obligated to eachother, it is more that they have mutual dependence. To sound completely corny, they 'complete' eachother.

So that was and still is the environment I exist in. True love and idealistic love. People have been telling me that relationships are not so smooth, there are ups and downs. And when they say things like that, I feel ike I am reading my favourite D.H. Lawrence books.

Periods of passionate romance, and periods of intense hatred.

With a week left in Singapore, I can't help but wonder why am I still single. In Bangkok, I lead an entirely sheltered life. My life is -> "Home, Work, Home" and "Family, family, family" So when I came to Singapore, I naturally thought, because I will be putting myself out there more, I would find someone.

On the telephone today,
Veronica (the Uni Admin lady) : Ah...you go back already hor? why, you didn't find a boyfriend?
Me: No la, where got.
Veronica: Because you are fussy mah.
Me: ....

....

Am I fussy in the sense that I expect relationships to be filled with laughter and love. You know, I don't expect much. Ultimately, I do want to have that true idealistic love, but not now.
I came here knowing that any (love) relationship developed will be dropped when I move back to Bangkok. No long term orientation.

7 days left in Singapore...and I have nothing to drop.
2 years of being single in Singapore, and looking towards another 3 years of being single in Bangkok.

Am I destined to be perpetually single?

I need some sweetness in my life.
Your resident insomniac,
Stacy