Persistence

Persistence is such a broad word.

I will not slack on my studies. Persistence.

I forced myself out of bed today to go to gym. Persistence.

Someone unwantedly keeps on contacting me. Persistence.

Here is a question I am throwing out to all of you....

If you do not feel the same way about som eone, but that person persists with the thinking that s/he can change your mind, and make you love him/her.

Is that hot or not?

There are two perspectives,
1. It is sweet and endearing. How s/he is patient and will wait for you.
2. It is intrusive and egotistic. How s/he thinks that you will definitely fall in love with him/her later on.

I side more with the 2nd perspective. I find it incredibly intrustive and I dislike people who are persistent. Maybe I am a little ruthless, because I tend to cut contact and burn bridges, you see, when I turn something off, it turns off. I'm not the type who would break up and make up.

So when I do break up, or cut off, any contact from the other person is very very gross.

This week I encounter 2 instances.
1. Email from Stephen
2. Msn chat with Cheng

I have to say that I am more welcoming to Cheng's messages. Cheng is persistent, as in he gave me my space (since last september!) and now he is slowly trying to talk to me. But, I think he is just clueless in general, so its not that he is giving me space and persisting.

Last week I drifted off in class daydreaming a bit, for all the men who waned off. Should I have persisted? Example, When he stopped calling me, contacting me, should I had called him instead, sat him down and told him, look I think we'd be good together, I'm not asking much, why deny ourselves a time of happiness?

Eee...I am too proud for things like that. Eee..so eerie, if I did that it would be like pulling a Stephen.

Stephen's email gave me shivers and ulcers and I couldn't sleep, and thank goodness Mary logged online (after I emailed her) to hear me vent for a while. I feel harassed.

I don't get it, granted I did say that I 'just wanted to be friends', but its a line!! What am I suppose to say?? Get out of my life? don't ever talk to me again?

Right now I'm really hating people who are on the one-way pursuit for the objects of their affection. So what if I am your object of affection? You definitely aren't mine.