The Prince and Me

I met Stephen at the airport today. I got to spend...roughly 2 hours with him.

He is just the same guy as last week, sweet and extremely loveable. When I saw him, and after speaking to him, all my doubts about him went away. (Doubts...in the sense of...why are we moving so fast? something = fishy? what's the story?)

He is a straightforward honest person, maybe not the brightest guy on the block when it comes to women (Men please take note: never ever imply marriage after a week of dating) ...haha but adorable all the same.

Anyways, I went in there determined to make a point, that I DO NOT want him to come to Singapore for me, and that we should just be friends.

Honestly, how do I know we'd even work out? how do I know if we'd last for a week? He gives up everything he loves and is used to in Victoria for me? I couldn't and don't want to take that responsibility.

Him, being the eternal optimist, tried his best to reassure me and told me that it is his decision to make. Sigh, at the end of it, I asked him not to contact me until I contact him first.

And when we were saying goodbye, it was so painful. It was just like my dream from 2 nights ago, when I hugged him, I clung to him. I felt like it was a moment out of a Chinese drama series. I should had just held him there for as long as I could, so that he could miss his flight.

I stood there watching him go through the immigration lines biting my bottom lip. When he was out of sight, I wanted to just sit at the airport 'til his plane left. hahah. neurotic.

I sat on a bench, called Gin Nah right away and told her what happened, then called Jamie as well. And from the sound of it...they (and Juliet) feel that I just let Stephen slip away, I'm always complaining that there is no one nice out there, then here comes mr. close-to-perfect and I push him away. It is extremely frustrating for them, I know I should be with him because he is so perfect for me.

I met Juliet and Jamie for dinner at Pepper lunch, we went grocery shopping and then went home to watch The Prince and Me.

Wow, I god damn wish I watched that movie yesterday.

Not to super spoil the movie, but basically she falls in love with this guy, he turns out to be a prince and she is so upset that he lied to her. and then she realises that oh my goodness maybe this really is like a fairytale and its real love and happineess...her fairytale could come true. So she dropped all her bags to go find him.

During this point of the film, I clapped my hands, and I got dirty looks from both Jamie and Juliet. haha I am very animated when I watch movies, so I was clapping my hands when she was realising that this guy is the one and she cant let him go.

Back to the plot...Then she realises that she lost herself in Denmark, and leaves him to pursue her career and to go back to her life in the US. *SUPER SPOILER*

The ending is lovely, at her graduation he is there behind her, and he said that he only wants her as his queen, and if it means waiting til she is ready, then that's what he'll do.

Made me bite my nails. Did I let my prince charming slip away? Jamie said that I slammed the door on destiny.

Wow that is super harsh.

Stephen, just in case you are reading this, I think you need space from me, most probably if and when I contact you; you would have realised that I'm no big deal and not worth the trouble. If and when that happens, I'll be happy for you. I am so sorry if I broke your heart today.