Falling-in-like

Here is where the line between diary and blog entries blur. But all of my good friends read my blog, so this is a way to update you all.

I have been feeling really stressed lately, not because of school but because of Stephen.

Stephen REALLY really likes me, and he is such a sweetheart, he emails me twice a day. So when I wake up I have a lovely email from him to look forward to, and when I get home from classes I have something to read and smile about.

He met my parents (i was so shocked), and they think he is nice and sincere, and that he really likes me and is serious about me. So serious that from his emails, I gathered that...he is going to move over to Singapore! (i was even more shocked).

I'm so overwhelmed, and I've been crying, not tears of joy.

I feel super crappy because there is no doubt that I like him, like my friend Yeen said, "ah...you fell-in-like" with him.

What a good choice of words. For me, falling-in-like is huge enough, it takes me a long time to open up and like a particular guy; and for things to be moving this fast is incredibly intense and I feel myself pulling away.

I don't know what to do.

I like him, but not to the extent that I can guarantee that we'd work out, and that does not justify him moving here. At the same time, what's stopping me is the fact that I don't really know him....but if I knew him better maybe I would I like him more, and for me to know him better he has to be here. Catch 22.

I'm torn and broken.